Today is a big day. A Full Moon at 16 Virgo at 7:38am EST, and Saturn ingresses to 0 Pisces.
Concurrent events.
I'm impressed by the cosmic architect. Her creative vision is immaculate.... her attention to detail, unsurpassed. She's got this 'dream' down to a science.... perfectly suited to this Virgo Full Moon/Saturn in Pisces day.
Structuring a magical dream into reality with precision? Sounds good to me.
While this is a Saturnian themed lunation (recall Saturn at 29 Cap was conjunct the New Moon Pisces and now ingresses into Pisces at the full), these last 2 weeks haven't felt 'structured' to me, nor to those I've spoken with. We are dealing with Pisces, after all. Flowing astral field delusions, nebulousness, unpredictability, emotion, dreams... And Saturn. Discipline, organization, limitation, boundaries, realism, control. Talk about a paradox.
But I have found that I'm trying to be more responsible with the dream I'm dreaming. Trying to take accountability for it, understand it with more clarity.
Last night I had a conversation with a friend in Vancouver which speaks to this Saturn/Pisces dilemma. Rather than postulate, I thought I'd build a 'Saturnian script' of our 'creative Piscean play' to describe my point.
(An aside... my friend? We'll call him D. For background, he's an enlightened 8th house Leo Sun/Sag rising who immerses himself into the poetic depths of life. He is playful, creative, philosophical, loving... and always DEEPLY DRAMATIC.)
THE SCENE:
Evening time. 7:30pm. She has finished feeding the brood - 3 children and dog. Frustrated that everyone prefers their screens to conversation, she embarks on a dog walk around the neighborhood.
She has been chewing on something emotional for the past few hours and so, perhaps out of some vague 'need' to talk it through... and a less vague 'need' for connection, she reaches out to her friend D, by text. He's far away on the other side of the country, yet is always a reliable anchor and one she has loved for 25 years.
"Can you talk?" she types.
No reply.
She wanders into the dark night alone, dog fixed to her waist by a short lead. She breathes deeply, feels the air enter her, calming her nervous system. A lazy thought tickles her as she walks... what if all she needs to do in that moment is lift UP out of the emotional funk she has been in... and choose HAPPY? Her life is pretty darn near perfect, after all.
So simple.
The emotional funk POPS. She remembers back to herself. She smiles. Is it really that simple??, she wonders...
And then, her cell rings. It's D.
"So... what's going on my friend?" says D.
"You know what?", she says, "So much is going on! Yet I'm sitting here now... thinking it's useless to talk about it!! I mean, it makes no difference. Why bother sharing my delusion when it's not REAL. Why not just lift out of it??? I'm honestly trying to figure out what my relationship is to this DREAM that I'm dreaming. It's a bit confusing. I mean, why dream at all when something MORE true is right there on the horizon? Why indulge in the story??? What difference does it actually make?? It seems like a waste of time. Because things are just going to just be exactly what they are going to be. I can't fix them or change them by talking about them incessantly, can I??? That's honestly what I'm pondering right now, D. 2 minutes ago? I wanted to tell you all about my heartache. Right before you called? I thought... why don't I just be happy and shut the fuck up."
"Hmmm....", purrs Mr. Leo in his dark melodious voice. "I get that. I really do. Now let me tell you a story...."
90 minutes later I got off the phone with Mr. Leo/Sag, flushed and joyful and happy with the depth of the dramatic story we'd co-created. We explored every nuance of his current relationship, his past relationship(s), the intricacies of his inner world, his intrigue, his longings, his fears. We looked at astrology charts, we postulated and philosophized.
WE HAD FUN.
I did, in the end, leave my own drama out of it. (I like to stay clean, after all.) Yet by the time our talk was over I thanked him profusely for what we'd shared. And I felt so much softer toward my self.
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"You are so much fun to play with!!" she said joyfully, approaching the end of her walk and of their time together. "I'm so grateful we got to create like this, together. I'm always so grateful for how much fun we have in our connection. Thank you, D. I love you."
"I love you too, my friend. Be well."
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Healthy Saturn in Pisces can indulge in the dream without getting lost in it. It can stay awake while swimming, eyes open, enjoying the fact that we are creators of a fantastic story.... and it is okay to relish in the joy this brings us!! Dreams are there for our entertainment. We have FRONT ROW SEATS TO LIFE!! So enjoy! Applaud! Standing Ovation all around!
But unhealthy Pisces?? Makes me think of when I was young and didn't know how to properly care for my fish tank. Oh, those poor bug eye buggers... (god)fish... swimming in yucky poo murk and unable to get out of it. Because it's only when we get STUCK in the dream... identifying with it... pushed around in the unconscious polluted waters without surfacing for fresh air... that 'dreams' turn to 'nightmares'.
And as Saturn and Pisces come together for this next evolutionary turning, perhaps we are heading into a cycle where we will be tasked to take responsibility for the dream we are dreaming.
So for goodness sake, keep your eyes open. Keep your heart in line. It makes a difference.
I have about a million other things to say about this. But today? I'll keep it light, creative and playful. I think there is enough heaviness in the field at the moment.
BTW, in honor of Saturn's ingress to Pisces and Pluto's to Aquarius, I am creating a monthly circle dedicated to exploring consciousness relative to archetypal astrology, esoteric astrology, the ancient wisdom teachings and our lived experiences. I have information to share, you have information to share... let's come together (Aquarius) and build (Saturn) something magical (Pisces)!!! If you are interested, respond to this newsletter and let me know. Let's play together.
Enjoy this Full Moon Day!!!
Blessings on your path...
Love
Sara
