Full Moon in Scorpio: Digging Deeper
Hello friends,
Friday April 30th, at 1:21pm EST, we enter a SCORPIO FULL MOON, with Sun opposite Moon at 11° Taurus/Scorpio.
I've been in Italy these last few nights. With my mom, brother and son... on a short holiday. While the days are filled with sunlight and beauty, each night has been filled with fitful dreams of digging down... deeper and deeper... into the underbelly of me. I feel like I'm up-rooting something: my ancestry, my origin, my darkness. Tunneling through layer after layer, trying to secure myself to some tangible place, as the dreams promise obsequiously that soon I will be HERE.... EMBODIED... HUMAN...
Yet, every day, I'm haunted by an anguishing feeling that I am a truly terrible person.
Now, maybe everyone feels like this when in close quarters with their family... yet this seems personally karmic. I AM terrible. Utterly selfish and bad. Irresponsible, bitter, shallow and mean. I know it is true. I feel it, within me. I am rooting it out.
King of the Wild Things, I am. (Like Max, of Maurice Sendak fame.)
So Taurean... this art digging into a labyrinth of insecurities... hunting safety. Hunting... ME.
A better me. Someone I will like being. Someone acceptable. Someone who won't be sent to bed without her supper. Someone who is loved... most of all.
Scorpio, Taurus' opposite, is about the DESTRUCTION of our terrible forms... our insecurities... our fears... our attachments... our possessions... and the releasing of their power in order for us to become MORE.
So I am hopeful tomorrow's Full Moon will accelerate my digging, and 'destroy' this terrible, horrible, very bad version
of me.
According to Esoteric Astrology, Taurus/Scorpio, as an archetypal pairing, rules the HUMAN KINGDOM. Because together they express the process of creation and destruction, which Humans seem uniquely capable of.
Us bi-pedal mammals with large frontal lobes seem always to be in a process of generating something: a desire, a relationship, a plan, a business, a monument, an event, an opinion.... And then letting it go.
As soon as a 'FORM' (as Taurus calls it) runs out of usefulness, we destroy it.
Scorpio's power to DE-generate allows us to dissolve that which is outdated, returning it to raw pure potential, ready to be RE-generated into something new.
Form to formless to form. Again and again... Taurus to Scorpio.... we humans are constantly in a process of creating and destroying...
The pendulum of life's duality.
Dogs do not do this. Nor Lions. Nor grasshoppers.
Only humans.
And wow does it hurt to be human sometimes. Yet... what other game can we play??? As all of my great teachers have taught me, it's the only one in town.
At this Scorpio Full Moon perhaps we will be illuminated with an awareness of how we are breaking free of something previously created... something perhaps limiting.
And maybe this full moon will invite us to RELEASE THE POWER of a form previously coveted... allowing us to grow beyond its confinement... tapping its power to make us stronger, bigger, better.
Is there something you've been harboring that is ready to die? Is there a limit you are ready to go beyond? Is there power to be used in facilitation of growth? Of deepening... of expansion?
Regenerate us, Scorpio. Please. Taurus season is early yet... and we would like our supper.
I hope you like my story... albeit dark, this time round. (What else could it be, at a Scorpio full moon???)
Stories really are on the menu, with Uranus' crossing into Gemini a week back.
So I want to invite you... again... to please join me for a talk about the stories that form us.
I had an amazing interview with Devorah Spillman for her 'InStory Show'. We spoke together about the way we tell the tale of who we are. She's hosting a beautiful summit... starting May 4th... with a plethora of amazing speakers sharing wit and wisdom. I'm sure you will find something here to tickle your creative juices.
Sign up here... it's totally free... no obligation at all.
https://instoryshow.com/SGordon26
All my love, (though sullen and moody, this day),
Sara
Artwork
1. Brooke Shaden, Photography
2. Maurice Sendak To the Land of the Wild Things
3. George Triggs, 'Broken'
4. Jason deCaires Taylor, Coral Progress, Holy Man, (The Power of Art to Restore Oceans)
5. Michelle Kingdom, The Dressing Room
